Sunday 24 January 2010

2am

Its 2am in the morning and i should be asleep, but my mind is racing and as so often of late i cant find peace. My obsession is as ever the priesthood. When i try to work out what i should be doing with my life, i keep coming back to this place - i should be a priest. I cant work out if i am just in denial, if what i should be doing is mourning and then trying to find a way forward, or whether i should be finding a way to fight.

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  1. When I was a postulant for priesthood and the church removed me, I got some very good thoughts from a priest-friend. He said, "The issue is not only vocation, it is also the church's perception of its needs. You may be correct in your view that you are a reasonable candidate for ordination, in fact I think you are. But the church must also ask if what you offer is what it discerns as its needs. So what you do is live the life of faith available to you. If the Spirit is indeed calling you to a ministry the church can visualize and affirm, eventually the two visions will come together. If not, you will be doing the best you can and that is all of our vocations."

    Just a thought.

    FWIW
    jimB

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  2. Amazing isn't it that 2 a.m. seems to be the time for reviewing and praying about things???

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